Covid Blues

Hi.

It’s been a long time. I’ve come to accept that this is how I function. I don’t want to force myself to pour out my emotions every few days. I stopped expecting things to happen. I’ve stopped forcing things that I know will only disappoint me in the future.

I have been letting things just happen as they were meant to. If I can’t change it, I’m not spending time worrying about it any longer. This is the way I’m coping at the moment. Although I’m having difficulty in not having high expectations of myself, I’m working on it.

To be honest, the past few months every single day feels repetitive. Getting up so late in the day, to do little to no work, and then sleeping in the early morning to do it all over again. It has been tiring. I can’t believe that staying at home can be this exhausting! I feel more tired than when we used to travel to uni for 2 hours back and forth daily.

This is my entry for today. Who knows when I’ll be able to write again. I’ve been working on writing my dissertation while doing bits for my project as well, so that has been keeping me busy and should keep me busy until the next semester starts again…

I guess this is it for now. I’m working on things. I’m working on myself.

’Til the next one,

-S