At the beginning of the lockdown, I told myself that i’d spend my quarantine time to write about anything and everything. But, the circumstances has made it so difficult especially with my mental health. I’ve been struggling since the start and it’s all gone down hill since. My motivation and postivity has just been wiped out day after day of being at home. I’m the type that’s perfectly happy to stay at home but knowing whats happening outside mixed with my anxieties It just don’t go well together. Ive been in my head way too much.
Based on my research, it’s not just me that has been struggling through this pandemic. Its comforting to know but at the same time very worrying. So, if you’re reading this and like myself struggling I hope you feel better soon and you just keep holding on. We’ve all got this!
On a positive note, I’ve finished my 2nd year of uni with a 2:1 overall. I’m happy with it. Although, I would have preferred a 1st. It was really hard to complete everything, I didn’t even think that I would pass. I should be looking forward to starting my 3rd year I just dont want to go back. I dont have the energy and the motivation. I’m just so empty and so lost that I don’t think I can put any effort into it. Hopefully everything changes within the next month since that’s when I’ll be starting…
Here’s me again trying to free myself of whatever thought is running in my head. Hopefully the next one will be better and soon!
Stay safe everyone!
