Why is it still so hard to forget everything that’s happened? Why is it still stuck in my mind? I’m trying everything that I can to get it out of my mind but it’s just not working…
I’ve talked to someone about it for the first time ever and I admit it did make me feel a little lighter but at the same time, I don’t think anyone can understand how it made me feel and how it continues to affect me ’til this day. As much as possible I do try to shrug it off whenever the thought enters my mind but, it’s just at the back always lurking and I’m tired! I’m tired of working so hard to get the thought out of my mind.
I’ve been busy, so I’ve been trying not to think about things that I know won’t make my life any easier. It just would be nice for someone to understand me; to say that everything that I feel is valid and there’s nothing wrong for being down sometimes because of it. I just want that but, unfortunately, there’s no one in my life right now that can say that to me.
I guess I should stop sulking now. I just wanted to get my frustrations out rather than keeping it all in and exploding, because to be honest, I don’t have the time to do that at this moment in my life.
I’ll keep trying to be as positive as I can.
